Senti Queen

“Are we” or “are we not?’  Literally translated in Filipino, tayo ba o hindi?

This is the usual dilemma being encountered by a boy and a girl who are obviously in love with each other but are both afraid to bring up the issue on the possibility of taking their friendship or constant togetherness to the next level.  Since there is no formal courtship, special feelings beyond the showbiz-like “friends (na) lang kami” pronouncements are either kept and better left unsaid.

“Pa’no na kaya? …. Di sinasadya… Di kayang magtapat ng puso ko… Sa dinami-rami ng kaibigan ko, ikaw pa?…”

When I first heard “Paano Na Kaya?” composed by Mr. C for Pinoy Dream Academy, I instantly fell in love with the song.  It speaks of a person’s growing love for a friend.  If I were on the same situation, I’d also rather keep the feelings to myself than risk losing a friend who may not understand what I feel and worse, finding out in the end that the feeling is not mutual after all.

The song reminded me of several scenarios in the past where the boy gave extra (special) attention to the girl, only to be discovered later by the latter that the former was just that— trying to be extra friendly.  I’ve seen friends who cried over guys who seemed very interested in them initially only to back out or back off later once they sensed that the girl was becoming too serious with their unlabelled relationship.

This is the main reason why it is always safer to never assume anything from guys who seem interested but never pop the question(s).  More often than not, guys— in their younger years— only like to play and test the waters so to speak before taking the big plunge in their early or late 30s.   There are also those who openly flirt and try to lead girls on, only to claim later that “I never said that I love you.”   Ouch.

Sometimes, it’s really hard to be a girl.  Whether you agree with me or not, we still live in a patriarchal society where girls who openly confess their feelings to guys are being frowned upon.  Thus, I admire those who bend rules and defy conventions.  After all, we are all human beings who are supposed to have equal rights even in the game of love.

Despite this conviction, though, I am still a conservative at heart.  I still don’t have the courage to make the first move in settling the issue of “tayo ba o hindi”?  But maybe… just maybe, I’ll take the risk if the guy is so worth it!  But definitely, I’ll make sure that it would be a calculated risk.

Kung ang mga guys nga, takot pa ring ma-reject.. girls pa kayaaaaa?!?