Archive for March, 2009

29
Mar

The One that Got Away

Have you ever given up on someone not because you don’t want the person anymore, but simply because you have to?

It is such a painful process of letting go for everybody’s peace of mind, including yours.  When the heart still says yes but the mind does not approve anymore, you are left with the better choice of doing the right thing.

Love really moves in mysterious ways.  Just when you thought that you two could seriously start making that beautiful music together, an unexpected truth or event takes it all away from you.  Then you will find yourself starting over, hoping that a better person will come along.  But the worst part is–at the back of your mind, there is nobody else better than this person because for you, he or she will always be The One.

It is not every day that you meet someone who seems like the perfect epitome of that person you have hoped for to be with for the rest of your life.   When reality sets in, however, you could just only wish that you’ve met him or her under better circumstances.

Sigh.  Maybe someday, or probably in the next lifetime.

19
Mar

Renewed Ties, Forgiving Hearts

These past few days, email-text-Friendster-Facebook messages from friends from way way back have kept on appearing in my Inbox — Anna (my Palaris sis na wala pa ring kupas, still looking good!), Chris (still a good friend), Meng (her text messages always amuse me), Joan (my roommate at Hostel Room No. 3), Bgynn (a former officemate), Joey (I bought my Beetle from him) —and other friends that I chose not to disclose lest I will be cited for contempt.  Wahahaha!

One friend (not one of those I cited above) emailed me the other day to apologize for “being an awful person” in the past.  Well, he already had me at thank you. That’s the only thing I wanted him to do for me to forgive and forget.  As simple as that.  He said that his life has now been totally transformed when he chose to strengthen his faith.  Good for him.

Life is more worth living if we live without any baggage in our hearts.  Forgiving people who may have hurt us in the past is a noble thing to do because it sets us free from any negative forces and energy that may be hampering our road to real peace, happiness, and lasting friendships.  It feels good to be friends again with people with whom you started a good old friendship, to begin with.

On the contrary, there are some people (not all, ok?) who hardly find the courage and humility to forgive those who have done them wrong despite all possible efforts exerted by the one seeking their forgiveness.  I would assume that there are really people who enjoy basking in the glory of showing off their pride and conceit that they are still being “pursued” and wanted (or so they thought), when in fact the only thing being asked of them is their forgiveness.

In reality, this kind of people bear the brunt of their own fears and insecurities so they would rather run away than face the issues head on once and for all, probably not because of hurt but immaturity.  Isn’t it far better for people to finally part as friends than wallow in self-pity forever with all those endless he/she-treated-me-like-sh*t pronouncements?

Anyway, it’s still anybody’s ballgame.  Anyone has the option to either live in painful what-ifs or live in peaceful what’s-nexts.

 

15
Mar

Cool Change

I got tired (again) of my blog design so here I am, picking out a more subdued layout for my blog to make my entries easier to read. :)

12
Mar

Touched by an Old Man’s Car Story

I was teary-eyed after reading “A pony tale,” an article written by Vernon Sarne published in the March 2009 issue of Top Gear Philippines. It was one of the most touching car articles I have ever read so far. Why? Sobrang naka-relate ako sa story.

One picture that struck a chord was that of Vernon’s father, Mr. Virgilio Sarne, sitting in front of the salesman who helped the Sarne family with their car purchase. The joy and excitement written all over Mr. Sarne’s face in that photo was very moving. I could just imagine the overwhelming happiness Mr. Virgilio felt at that moment for finally owning his first car—and a Ford Mustang at that!  And the last paragraph of that article totally blew me away! A sucker for romance, I found it so sweet that the reason the old man bought the car was to fulfill his wife’s lifelong dream of owning a car.

The story made me remember my own father who had also never owned a car in his lifetime. I knew that one of every man’s biggest dreams is to drive his own fancy car, just like every other man in the neighborhood. While his friends and contemporaries were driving Toyotas, Fords, and Volkswagens during their heydays, my old man could only afford a second-hand owner-type Jeep which we, the children, grew up with for almost 20 years until he sold it in 2003. Although we had our first second-hand car in 2000 (which we also later sold in 2007), it was primarily driven by my brother, not my father.

Last year, when I let my father use my restored VW 1303S Beetle, he hesitated at first probably because he was thinking that it wasn’t his so he might have felt as an intruder. But the moment I assured him that I bought and have the car restored for him and mom’s use (I have to lie to lessen his anxieties), that’s the only time he relented and treated the pretty bug as his own. I decided to let go of my greatest love for a while if only to make my old man feel happy, proud, and comfortable.

Days after that, I could see the joy and pride in his eyes every time he drives the Beetle around the neighborhood. That, to me, is consolation enough for every dent and scratch that my car has suffered since my dad took the helm as its driver slash co-owner. Though it pains me sometimes to find my bug in a crappy state, I find solace in the thought that I could always “restore” the Beetle (again!) to its pristine condition once my father returns the key to me out of tiredness, maybe.

Like Mr. Virgilio Sarne, my father is also nearing 70. And like Vernon Sarne, seeing and helping my old man makes one of his dreams a reality is a fulfilled dream in itself.

06
Mar

Amiel Then, Angel Now

Last Tuesday night, our class discussion was sidetracked by the story of Amiel Alcantara, a Grade 4 pupil who was tragically hit by a van inside his own school last month. Having no access to TV and newspapers for the last two weeks, I had no idea what the story was all about.

Everybody was very attentive when our professor started to recount the story. I, for one, became nostalgic upon hearing the sad details how the little boy died. My maternal grandmother more or less died in the same manner so I could just imagine his family’s anguish, pain, anger, and suffering up to this day. Losing someone is painful enough, and losing this person by way of a senseless death due to some other people’s negligence is far more difficult to bear.

So much had been said about Amiel and his tragic death and just like everybody else, I could only hope that it would not happen again. It is just so sad that in this country, it seems that it always takes a tragedy to move people to action to prevent accidents from happening again.

No words—how nicely said or crafted—could truly comfort Amiel’s family right now. A parting word for Amiel from one of his classmates, however, tugged a string at almost everyone’s hearts including mine: “I can’t believe you’re an angel now.”